It’s been about a month since my last post. I just haven’t had it in me to blog.
If you didn’t read my last post, our offer on a house that we fell in love with was denied and the seller went with another buyer. I don’t want this post to be about the negative feelings associated with that experience, so I’ll just link it ——> House Hunting Adventures – Episode Offer Rejected.
I’ve been neglecting caring for myself in pretty much every way possible. I haven’t been eating well, I haven’t moved my body and my mental health has been on the decline for four weeks.
To give you a quick update on the housing situation – We found a house a little over a week ago that we really liked. We put an offer in and it was accepted. I won’t delve too far into this story – I want to share my experience in a completely separate post once everything is said and done. Things are looking up on this front, though.
This afternoon my boyfriend and I went to the food store for our weekly shopping. I had Banquet Pot Pies on my list of things to buy since they were on sale for $0.88. With up and coming closing costs, we’re on a pretty tight budget. I thought they’d be sufficient as a cheap lunch or dinner. I also haven’t been in a mindset that allows me to prep and plan healthy meals for the week.
After grimacing at the ingredients, we put two boxes in our shopping cart. I hesitated and said, “I’m really not happy seeing those in my shopping cart.” My boyfriend said, “So don’t put them in the cart.” We took them out and put them back in the freezer.
I didn’t think much of that interaction in the moment, but it really made me think about the choices I make, especially when under stress.
It’s important for me to hone in on what my long-term life goal is. At this point – it’s just to live as simply as possible. I want to be mentally and physically clear of all things toxic. I want to allow an abundance of light and happiness in as often as I can.
I need to get back to my roots of what makes me really happy. Meditation, moving my body, eating more plant based, drinking water, moisturizing my dry skin, writing, reading, etc.
I know for certain what doesn’t make me happy and it’s an eighty eight cent box of processed frozen food found on sale at the grocery store.